I have always looked to Art in times of crisis: Because even in my earliest experiences-Art is passion. So when all else fails I know I can turn my fears and insecurities upside down and express emotion as something confident, free and empowering.
My current work has intensified my sensitivity-by focusing on conveying emotion through a painting. Andrew Tift influenced my work. His hyper realistic style entirely encapsulates emotion in portraits. I did two paintings in contrast (both of my parents): One shows the vibrancy of youth and love and the other is more cynical. The painting shows the phychological pain of what looks like a strong individual. I wanted to personify the complexity of the individual's emotions by using an abstract background. The textures and colours convey stress and corruption.
Discipline has always been a key element of my work. I found an interest for technique and accuracy in painting at a very young age. Therefore I tend to use paint in a controlled manner. However I began sketching, using heavy charcoal and blotchy dark ink; this created disturbing images that reflected the way people hide away from their true identity out of fear that they won't be accepted. My work explores conventions of beauty and character, in order to create something alternative. Jenny Saville's controversial stance against idealism inspired me.
I intend to continue this theme of imperfections to human form in more depth. I was recently enthused by some footage I saw of a performance at Sadler's Wells Theatre. Choreographer Compagnie Marie Chouinard used malfunctions of the body as a focus point for dance. The shapes and bizarre movements of the routine were interesting and has motivated me to explore the human form in different ways.
